I am gonna be 21 next month, I am 26 weeks pregnant. I am unemployed and I just left my husband of six months because my mom didn't approve.

Last year I fell in love with a polygamist, we ended up getting married without my mothers knowledge. From the beginning of our marriage, it had been troublesome to a point where my husband kicked me out three months into our marriage because I couldn't go to church with him yet I was really sick from being pregnant. We got back together and he promised me some changes, won't go into detail. When it came to deliver those promises he failed hopelessly everyone of them. Now my mom, has finally forced me out of that marriage although I love this guy very much and this guy wants me to go against my moms wishes once to make a statement for our marriage in exchange he promises once again a lot but my problem is I don't trust him anymore and I can't take that risk again because I know he always has a way of making me regret me getting back with him. My other problem is, I am pregnant with his child, I am not sure whether to give him the child when its born or to keep the child. I wanna go back to school as soon as I give birth but I don't know if I will cope with a newborn and school and maybe work. On the other hand I could give the father the child but that means giving up ever being a full time mom to my child. I am in such a hot mess.